Back from Arra’s place! All was fun and well. Can’t believe how much I missed hanging out with guys without all the sexual tension there. Haha! 

i love you for giving me that nicholas sparks book that february but that only proved how much you don’t know me. 

honey,

why must you always pop back into my life

at the most horrible timings?!

i miss you like hell

but i don’t want you here 

right now.

From his facebook About Me page:

im cool, im fresh, im swag, i trip, i keep, i talk, i dance, i smile, i speak, i picked, and whatever happens to me i still LOVE what i do, and what i do is for you to find out, its a little thing called socialization and understanding, especially with girls, HAHA!, PEACE!!!!!:!:!!:!

Jesus freakin christ, what the hell did I ever see in him.

I wish CJ didn’t live two plane rides away, I wish he didn’t live in a place with an eight-hour time difference from here.

And you start wondering how to tell the boy you love that Jesus is dead and isn’t coming back. You wonder if he’ll believe you. You wonder if he’ll even accept what you’re saying or push you away as if you were the devil himself. And when you tell him that a God exists but doesn’t care, you wonder if he’d still love you back. 

Oh my god did CJ actually just tell me he likes me 

The last time I saw him was about three weeks ago. It was a Monday (it was strange wasn’t it? We are both Tuesday people). It was by the Lagoon. It was a sunny afternoon. He was wearing a dark green T-shirt. I was wearing black and an old pair of shorts I wouldn’t have worn if I’d known there was even a remote possibility he’d see me that day. I had my sunglasses perched at the top of my head, looking cool even though I felt anything but. He said, “Hi.” I said, “Heya.” Smooth, I know, ugh. And so I won’t see him until classes resume. Fucking fantastic. 

I’d totally forgotten that the guy I like right now is actually kind of pretty religious, which is why he’s not been online all week, since it is after all Holy Week. (I miss him.) It’s weird for me to like someone like him. 

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• OH MY GAHD PLEASE DON’T TELL ME WE LIKE THE SAME GUY
• NOT BECAUSE WE’RE FRIENDS AND THAT WOULD OBVIOUSLY BE A CONFLICT
• BUT BECAUSE SHE’S SO PRETTY AND SMART AND TALENTED
• AND I’M
• JUST
• NOT

okay i just embarrassed myself into the next century gaaaaah :-“