- photoshoot with dan and ji in the morning
- lunch with them and arra :)
- met cedrik’s girlfriend stef @_@ she was… sweet. more on that later
- have to get ready for mum’s birthday celeb. bye now

• and in a ridiculously convenient turn of events, classes are suspended today. 
• i have woken up from the best sleep i’ve had in weeks, albeit from very very very weird dreams involving lester (from bc 102) and ethan.
• i still have not showered.
• i should start working on my writers club tasks.
• i have made a playlist called noisy-screamy-angsty everyone-sucks playlist.
• dandan & i have this expression we call “Ugh, Ced. :| :))” because… yeah.
• jesus christ these kids never learn to do anything for themselves anymore. have just been approached by a high school underclassman acquaintance asking for help on their thesis or paper or what not.
• “another heart calls” has just come up on shuffle and oh wow i feel sad because i remembered AA again
• will probably go to dinner with ethan tonight because rain & loneliness is not a good combination

One second I’m thinking of miniskirts and tights and Danica and the future and then next I’m thinking of you—the scent of you in the jacket you draped over my shoulders, the freshness of the midnight air in the day that was not anymore Tuesday but wasn’t quite Wednesday yet. I’m thinking of how much I maybe loved you, when the weight of that maybe felt good on my tongue and the uncertainty felt exhilarating. I remember quietly watching the distance between your lips and mine, and your were so pink and so full and so chapped that night.

Now the uncertainty is gone and that maybe was swallowed up along with other words I know I’ll never say because I understand now I never did love you. 

DAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMONDAMON

Lol #ohiwishyouwerehere reminded me of Cedrik’s old pseudonym. La lungs

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what happened? :( and .. WHOOO? :x >:(

Former batchmates from St. Paul. Like HOW DID THEY GET HERE @__@ Idk, nothing really happened, I just really really hate don’t like them. Hehe. 

This day is definitely worth writing about. Granted the morning sucked— it was enrollment and everything. Ian was a fantastic help in the morning and he’s pretty nice. Anyway, four hours blah blah me and physics are never meant to be and blah kept seeing the cute Yski around and blah blah blah.

After, like, seven hours of waiting and running around campus for classes, me and mum finished enrollment at 4pm, and caught a ride with Arra to Dreamwave, where Mariko was having her small despedida because she’s leaving for Japan in a few days for six (or perhaps more) months. 

Arrived there late, of course— but they were all there, Danica and Gabbs and Jirah and Kim and Mariko and Gelo and PSP just about everyone and I was just so so so happy and I can’t really explain it. (In part though, I knew I was happy because I had a confidante in danica and i was able to moan and whine and complain about cedrik all i liked and she joined me too and it was fantastic to just have girl problems and someone to whine to about them once in a while.) Just…happy. And not even the knowledge that I’d signed up for a suicidal class could stop me from feeling happy right now. Getting together with these guys was so awesome, although it just sucks that it has to happen because Mariko’s leaving.

I just had strawberries and cream for dinner and it’s currently raining. The rain smells SO good.

I AM SO SO SO HAPPY I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO EXPLODEEE I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPYYYY :D :D :D :D :D

The happiness hasn’t worn off. :D

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Parehas lang tayoooo. @-) Haha. Muntikang crush palang nagkaron ako. XD

hahaa. dibaaa? @-) ako din e, muntikan lang. ang weird. akala ko pa naman magiging left and right yung mga crush ko. =))

okay day. slightly boring, but at least physics was okay. math ii was a load of crap though.

met a friend called Ice. he’s nice.

got locked in my best friend’s condo, doorknob was all fuzzed up can you believe it? hahah it took us around thirty minutes to fix it all up. it got messed up just as we were leaving for my friend C’s place.

MY BEST FRIEND was being ultra cheesy today, pretending to go home and do number two, but instead went to national and bought me the first book of the percy jackson series (i can’t read my pdf files anymore since my pdf reader/cellphone took a three day long.) thanks, bestie. :)

i have a little secret from ohiwishyouwerehere. hahaha, no matter what you do, i’m not going to tell you! :P you better ask him yourself. 

to my dear sweet friend hellyeahbrunette, why are you so lucky? we don’t have hot guys here at our review center. you lucky, lucky girl. do you have any idea how lucky you are? just make sure next week’s weekend is free, we’ll think of something nice to do, like going to the spa. can you say relaxation? *sigh*

we have three days left in hell, and can you believe it took us nine FULL sessions to get out of our circle and mingle? honestly you’d think we were all antisocial. everything’s cool now.

turns out i don’t have to move tumblr urls anymore. most of my school mates who are following me don’t have any idea who i am anyway. 

gotta bounce-bounce-bounce and study freaking biology. or at least pretend to study. i wouldn’t want to bad influence my friends here. hahaha.

hahahahhaha super stress

nothing but studying. hahahaha.

only one cute guy interacted with my best friend. hahahaha.

super bonding over here.

hahahaha am staying over at celine’s house later tonight with ohiwishyouwerehere and (one of) my best friend(s). we’re supposed to be “studying” but who knows what will happen later. hahaha.

holy crow, i’m missing MH more and more, and i don’tknow why. actually, i do know, but let’s not talk about that.

i am getting over my guilt about FG bit by bit, again thanks to ohiwishyouwerehere and hellyeahbrunette. thank God, it’s about time. (again, again, i know i’ve got no right to talk about that.)

anyway, gotta bounce.

hahaha it’s gonna be one of those nights.